Artist’s Journal: NUMBER 83

Step-By-Step – It’s a Process!

I am trying to better understand how I process, as well as, my actual technical process. Why? Well, besides being a Virgo and a bit OCD, I want to become better at what I do.

This is a series of photos I took to record a painting in a series I did for Luis Villanueva, fellow painter and gallerist at the Colo Colo Gallery in New Bedford, Massachusetts. I actually do this for most of my work. I’ve also culled several quotes that reflect something about how I think and feel as a painter.



Robert Hughes – The greater the artist, the greater the doubt. Perfect confidence is granted to the less talented as a consolation prize. 

Doubt or insecurity or, are they one and the same? I don’t doubt myself. But, I do doubt the outcome of my efforts. It takes a lot for me to be satisfied with the end result. Great artist? I can’t be the judge of that.

Marcel Duchamp – I force myself to contradict myself in order to avoid conforming to my own taste.

This I do. I don’t want to be comfortable. I have been trying to get away from myself. Trying as it were to contradict myself. I sometimes feel I’ve boxed myself in. I’m trying to breakout. I don’t know what’s going to happen when I approach the easel. I let myself go only to come back again. 


Here’s the final piece… LV #2 – 2016


Friedrich Nietzsche One must still have chaos in oneself to be able to give birth to a dancing star. 

I do feel conflicted. I need to. I need to feel a sensation of fight or flight when I approach the easel. I’ll fight until I get myself out of a corner I’ve painted myself into. Or, I fly away if I feel no challenge or empty. Still trying to figure it all out. In the meantime, I try not to think – just paint! 

Patti Smith – The artist seeks contact with his intuitive sense of the gods, but in order to create his work, he cannot stay in this seductive and incorporeal realm. He must return to the material world in order to do his work. It’s the artist’s responsibility to balance mystical communication and the labor of creation. 

This intuitive sense of the gods. The white noise that either I need to or, I feel I am being beckoned to decipher.  The mystical communication is only something I am conscious of. I don’t dwell on it. Painting is work. It is a job. It has a purpose for the creator and the viewer. I guess what I am searching for is what that purpose really is and why was I selected as the medium to channel it.




Posted on: 06/12/2016, by :
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